Unexpected enlightenment

Two and a half years have passed since then.

I can say that in general my life has changed for the better - it became fuller, more meaningful, and more harmonious. Although some the deepest questions remained not fully realized. For example, Being and Nonexistence - although they were realized by me during the session, but later became just theoretical concepts. Or, for example, The Most Important Question - why there is something rather than nothing? And what's the point in all this? Why Being itself exists? Yes, I received the answer: "Just live", but now it became for me some theoretical knowledge as well.

Nevertheless, I tried to follow the recommendations I received during the session. In particular, the fact that I do not need additional sessions of Ayahuaska or any other psychoactive substances. The only thing I sometimes could allow to myself (and what was "allowed" to me on Ayahuasca session) is sometimes to smoke cannabis with friends, just to relax. This happened very rarely, somewhere once in 2-3 months, for recreational purposes only.

One day my friend came to visit me, and we smoked a joint. When we met together, we often debate on popular science topics, such as Theory of Relativity, Quantum Mechanics, String Theory and others. This time he told me that he had read an article (if I'm not mistaken, it was about the Many-worlds interpretation of Quantum Mechanics), in which there was a hypothesis that an infinite number of variants of the splitting of events at the quantum level is not really infinite, but is limited by probability.

And then I felt that I was beginning to penetrate into the deep meaning of this phrase - Infinity is limited by probability. My perception changed tdramatically. I suddenly felt similar sensation of Truth that was with me during the Ayahuasca ceremony. I realized that this is an epiphany, and that it is really happening to me right now. I began to understand the very essence of things. I realized that this is the answer. In fact, everything is arranged so elegantly!

One by one, insights about the world and myself began to come to me. I took the phone and started to write it down in order to not forget anything. These were not just words, I comprehended the very essence of things, not just intellectually understanding the deep meaning of words, but also at the level of feelings and mental images and concepts.

Infinity is limited by probability

Even the limited by probability infinity remains infinite

Any events can develop according to an infinitely possible scenario, but they are also limited by probability

The number of ways of evolution of the universe is limited by the probability

If the universes evolved along infinite ways and ALL possible events occur, then there really would not be any sense!

This is infinite evolution of universes, which never repeats itself

This is the Multiverse

The universe exists to be aware of itself

The universe is becoming aware of itself through itself

Everything, the food and the eater, the victim and the executioner, is universe

The Multiverse is Everything

Everything is possible, but the realization is limited by probability

It is cannot be different, because this is IT

It is rather difficult to describe in words what I have realized by the word "IT". It's ALL, it's Being and Nonexistence, it's God himself and the process of creation, it's all the universes created by God, and it’s me.

This is Nothingness

I felt uncomfortable realizing Nothingness. In fact, everything that exists, the universe, God, Being, everything that you can imagine actually is nothingness. In fact, there is nothing. In reality, nothing exists anywhere, including me. But on the other hand there is Everything. Nothingness and Infinity are the same.

This is me

Everything is the same as me

Because this is me

I realized Nothingness. I realized the Primordial Absolute Consciousness, or the God manifested from Nothingness. I realized the infinite universe, created by God from Nothing. I realized myself. All this - Nothingness, God, the Universe, and I are all essentially one. All that exist in the universe, all individuals, all things and all phenomena are essentially the same. All individual consciousnesses in the universe are essentially manifestations of the One Absolute Consciousness. All this is me.

Nothingness contains an infinite number of probabilities

I realized that the manifestations of the Primordial Absolute Consciousness into nothingness from nothing and awareness of oneself and of one's existence is simply inevitable. There is no such point in time when this happened. This process does not and cannot have a beginning or an end, it is an eternal process.

The universe is nothing

The universe is everything

We will disappear, but we will not vanish.

This is infinite flow of infinity

We are the result of the realized probabilities

We are nothing, but we are

We are more than just parts of the universe, we are the universe

We are equivalent to the universe

As in the Ayahuasca session, I realized my unity and identity with the Primordial Absolute Consciousness, or God. The Primordial Absolute Consciousness and my consciousness are essentially the same, actually it is my consciousness, it is me. I am the awareness of myself and my existence.

Further insights recorded in the first person, but the "I" is no longer me a person, but “I” as the Primordial Absolute Consciousness, or God.

Will and probability are interrelated, these are two sides of the same coin

Nothingness and infinity are equivalent

My will is probability

Probability is a manifestation of will

My will is infinite

All this is happening at my will

Everything happens at my will

Because everything is me

I willfully limit infinity, but it remains infinite

I've become aware of myself

This is the main thing

To realize oneself in infinity

To realize infinity

To realize the infinity of self

This is the whole point

Everything happens, both bad and good, because it's me too

Will is probability, and probability is will

In fact, all THIS happening simultaneously. Time does not flow, time is infinity

By "THIS" here is meant the whole process of creation and destruction of all universes, all Being. Time flows within universes, such as ours, but in Infinity, time is also infinite. Everything exists everywhere and immediately.

There is everything ... But it is limited by an infinite probability... And therefore it is infinite

I am love

I am beauty

I am everything

My will is inherent in all the worlds.

Everything happens at my will

I give freewill at my will

Freewill is a manifestation of my will

Freewill is my will

It is truth

Nothing happens again, because there is everything

Repetition is limited by probability

This is a non-repeating infinity

The whole universe is a thought. This is what the “thought is material” means

God is what IS

I AM

At a certain stage, I realized that what is happening to me now is nothing but real enlightenment. I realized that this has already happened many times throughout the human history, and that such enlightenments are important for the universe.

Also I realized that some people, trying to realize Infinity, went crazy, and that this is also a part of me.

My friend went home long ago, but insights continued to come to me, and I continued to write them down. At a certain moment, I suddenly realized my greatness, not as a person of course, but as a Creator, Absolute Consciousness, which creating all worlds. Don’t get me wrong, it was not some egoistic bragging or boasting. There was no one else there, no one to brag about, I was alone in the whole universe. It was precisely the pure awareness of greatness as the Creator of Infinity.

It was late already, I went to bed, closed my eyes, but could not fall asleep. For a while, revelations continued to come to me. I opened my eyes, took the phone and wrote them down few more times until I fell asleep.

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I don’t know if it's a coincidence or not, but this enlightenment happened to me exactly the day I finished and published English version of my experience with Ayahuasca. They say that nothing in the world happens by chance :-)

I'm not sure that I was completely ready for this experience, to comprehend all this information. I was shocked by the realization of nothingness. Over the next few days, I was overwhelmed with an unpleasant feeling that difficult to describe in words. Something like a panic attack or fit of horror lasting a few seconds, when I suddenly realized that everything that surrounds me at the moment and me essentially are nothing. In fact, nothing of this exists (in the meaning of how I was realizing the absolute existence of reality before).

I felt the urgent need to "ground" myself, to take my mind off all this. I not only postponed writing down my experience and stopped opening my notes made on the phone, but I tried not to think about it at all for a while.

Over time, the passions subsided, and I was able to return to my notes. In addition, the number of signs 11:11 and others, which I regularly receive, has become just off scale (more about this phenomenon here), and I felt the need to share this experience with others.

In the light of this new experience, those revelations that I received in the previous experience with Ayahuasca acquired a new depth. Now I deeper understand the Being - Nothingness, Infinity and Eternity.

The main secret of being - "Just live!" was understood in a new way.

And, of course, I realized the true nature of my consciousness and consciousness of the Absolute much more deeply. I realized the unity of everyone and everything in the world as a part of myself, part of my own consciousness.

I am!

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